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Poetry is prayer
in life’s vicissitude:
a saving grace against
manipulated or
unmanifested odds
overwhelming without
warrant or patterning
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I do not write the sun, storm or sea
but re-create myself and others
in verses turn time and pluck some stars
to find my way through masked trenches
witness to my sinking into mud
that curves the memories into bias
disgrace dust, sky, wind, and all relations
window of emotions I must chain
to breathe a pure breath without passion
and discover essence of beauty
spring a move towards self harmony
perfection and peace, prelude to nude
enlightenment to carve life in full
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The faces appearing
and receding in
dark of closed eyes
don’t answer why
they aren’t winged souls
fading in the sun
I emptied before it set
in the gowns of girls
stopped from dancing barefoot:
they shake autumn in the rain
mist blurs the image
water spills in shady pool
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The sun couldn’t help
nor fish protect:
river has no sex
so it dried up
trapped in its own banks
5
This chilly night
she folds her arms and legs
resting her head
upon the knees and sits
as an island
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Ghosts rise to mate
in moonlight tear the tombs
frighten with fingers
rhino horns rock the centre
granite sensation
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Shadows
spring from night
whispering darkness
fog the streetlight
and I walk
alone
against wind
unseen and unheard
glide
into dreams
create circles
of longings
or spin wheels
of miracles
with blind faith
drug genes and
drone out psalms
in void
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I know a fire burns
the thumb-sized flame
beyond the heart
restlessly I seek
light in shadow
forget the sun
I feel its heat
and see the light
by light itself
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Seeking fire in the
furnace of delight I fail
to weld my fragments
into one lasting love:
I act delusive orgasm
to get out of myself
tear dreams in holes
live bit by bit, in pieces
restive as ever
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The games I couldn’t play
the adversaries I made
unliving the sun
in field undoing
the ense air with spray
prove I’m obsolete
in a land of scams
God seems irrelevant and
altruism is preposterous
kind of naivety
or doubletalk they think right
poets are good but foolish
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I’m dying to connect
myself to your navel love
and feel your heart beat
inside your breast space
cared by blood at your altar
sip life in your flame
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You were so near yet
I couldn’t reach your body:
half-risen sun
I couldn’t rise to embrace
half-met eyes
half-said prayer
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As I repose
in the wrinkles
of her face
I feel her crimson
glow in my eyes
her holy scent
grows inside
a sea of peace
multiplies
in the mind
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The eruptions and scars remind
how weak we are
fighting ourselves we fight others
disrupt balance
O mother, I fear diseases
born from within
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Again the stone-cool city
frightens the oval existence
downward in black moment
swamps of labour will vanish
in fume I see no prayers:
who can hope to dial new angels
when most have turned Cubist cock
rivaling small spooks underground
tempting vulgar feats with awnings?
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The darkening clouds
and shapes of jungle animals
won’t disappear with rains
but stay in my eyes
with icy nights waving tails
in dreams or blazing time
the whimpering sun
with diamond tides won’t burn the sea
nor obscure miracles
round evening when tired
of sand trapped between toes
I prick the vacuum in soul
I can see through strange tales
winds spin across chessboard
whether playing or watching:
myths of victory weigh heavy
it’s better I keep quiet
lest the earth mourn poet’s truth
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I don’t understand
why dogs defecate at our
gate, lawn and backyard
I don’t understand
their gossip denouncing me
in corner meetings
it’s no use throwing
stones or chasing them away
they love smell of earth
the bitches’ bottom
in season sexcites, they can’t
control their passion
they are uneasy
in our presence but leave filth
for others to clean
let’s ignore them
they’re dogs and detractors
defecating, barking
at the gate, backyard
street corners they have it off
to ease their tension
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In the name of faith
and God
politics fuels bigotry
strips the prophets
corrupts clarity
reasoning ceases
when mind purveys prejudice:
age shuts the door
everybody paves
his own way to the grave
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For Yitzak Rabin
Duped by the voice of God
and curse of the Rabbi
Amir is satisfied
he killed Rabin with three
lashes of fire for courting
peace with PLO
ignoring the Torah
and compromising Israel’s
honour all over the world
lovers of peace did you hear
” It hurts, but it’s O.K.”
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Politics is based
neither on knowledge
nor principles but scams
irresponsible
power for free money
hawala, gawala and
loots to strip democracy
voters’ faith for five years
connive with criminals
raring to patronize
rival systems from within
blur reality with
majority or
minority views
cook facts for convenience
accommodate strange
bedfellows to bamboozle
honest authorities
introduce God and godmen
make religious appeals
pursue hypocrisy
in the name of the common man
serve vested interests
and cry if CBI
nabs or lodges them
in Tihar or blasts
their structures of influence
how tragic now they
whimper mosquitoes bite
and villains threaten
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They demolish huts
for encroaching on pavements
but God stands smiling
the criminal dies
and his followers extort
sums for Samadhi
raise puja pandal
after Lotus temple deck
Durga and Mandal
encroach on public land
without murmur politics
plays its own logic:
who can protest when
wolves mate bitches to create
a democratic race?
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It’s the same old smell
the same old colours I see
in the corridors
of my mind the monotony
of a museum now
I must open the doors and
let in new images
before wandering apparitions
clog the lone passage
with hidden dust and make life hell
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How much I cared for tomorrow
saving suffering spoiling today
cursing the sky and wrinkles that
remind how the rains have hollowed
my dreams this morning a-sneezing
I fear again I can’t rejoice
the flash of rainbow caress sleep
flowers, butterflies or glow-worms
monsoon dampens walls and spirit
without reprieve it drips from cracks
life’s helplessness prolongs lies in
foppish designs and burnished wings
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The disorder in my inner world betrays the tension outside:
the anger over fanaticism and loss of ideals, politics and corruption
the degeneration all-around and struggle for survival amidst lying and conniving
and these burdens, death of desires, drugs, orgies, promiscuities
the piggish chaos oozing from the system like an ancient wound
I can’t suffer the crises I haven’t authored even in thought
I can’t endure aches of incompletion, dark void that sounds aloud
in my sleep I can’t see my innocence afflicted by mirror
eating into my soul, ingesting my own body for something
there is neither consolation nor forgiveness, but negation
I’m belittled as man, degraded constantly in fire of inner effigies
or is everyone demeaning with intimate doubts and mutual mockery?
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The non-revolting bitterness
cross-legs with mute whispers
chokes sensibility
academic frauds breed culture
with erect greed meanness
sweeps bigness with granite
head jeer past wonders and treasures
in sand sink shamelessly
weave new apology
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Where education leads to submissiveness, not self-respect
where knowledge and acceptance depend on certificates
where push-out is called drop-out
where repression breeds fear, powerlessness, alienation and marginalization
where dependency, not self-sufficiency, perpetuates with helplessness
where discontentment is the way of life and dignity is decried
where the system blames the victims to preserve status quo
and the stream of reason is lost in narrow divisions
into that ever-widening hell of majority and minority
O my God,
— let my country not sink in the new century
(with apology to Rabindranath Tagore)
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Poetry is pain
for disguise to lift the veil
in this place nothing
can grow no root gets water
eyes only unsee
long weeds I tried to uproot
rage, violence, anguish
restlessness mitigated
with fellow-poets
reflect madness in outside
but nothing changes
maybe nothing will change yet
we dream in silence
willing new poems of pain
or pleasures concealed
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Environmentalists’ nude
protest over ” US talks
US profits”
camouflage love:
food for eyes like good weed they
collapse on body’s delta
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He is a solo drum
trying to get his rhythm
against the sputtering rains
the mud sticks on trousers
wet and cool it can’t sleep
in the thorns of our yard
I seek my balance in
yoga-nidra in the closed
room think his thoughts and lies
we weave to ensnare spirit
that pricks the balloon we pump
to rise above the earth’s green
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Death is the same in every creed
like colour of blood in the living
or dying, though it’s only the living
that call death or blood Hindu or
Muslim, engineer disharmony
set history on fire and corrupt
memory with ashes of time
raising new slogans for Babri
and Ramjanmabhoomi in Ayodhya
the cracked riverbed will unlive
winded metaphors of distrust
and reveal how man has cheated man
trying to hang wraiths of primal word
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Staring in the midnight blank
I hear the lungs’ whisperings
that conspire with secret draughts:
August’s damp eyes gaze down
the walls that clamp breathing
on bended knees I wonder
if each day must be wintered
for the sin of surviving
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‘Amidst so much grief
and helplessness love is God’s
grace to hope and live’.
‘Alright, I can forget
gaudy icons, pervert godheads
and crudities in hills
even suffer rebirth
if you can ensure
a decent death’.
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I am a stranger
to things so familiar:
the city stares at
my identity and asks
why the sun rose through
enamel stripping traffic
while dusty pavements
croon new tunes against shadows
orchestrating fears
cries and griefs few bother for
convenience stay
unredeeming or
unredeemable?
I am no heir
to their kindness
nor can live their faith
through cracks skillfully made
for immortality
they may know me well
when the sky clears
after the rains
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Pseudos, shams, crooks and
politicians pervert:
empowered by their
own corruption swing
hard to keep the ball in play:
impact gives out clue
sometimes sweep the ground
and sometimes get swept with scams
CBI unearths:
their head moves ahead
unreal their rhetoric
pull up if you can
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Accursed I stay
awake counting minutes
hours nights and days
breathing pollutants in
bed courtyard rooms
none care for my nightmarish
remembrance of
doctor devil and god
alone I suffer sins
I didn’t commit
now unembraced she turns
her back pressing
pillow between the thighs
curls no apology
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In my sleeplessness
I fear the dark killing dreams
and burying hours
I couldn’t save for tomorrow:
gloom glitters with sun
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Age shakes confidence
in sex he wonders is urge
to penetrate all
or undoing of
single man in aloneness
unmask tyranny
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The menopausal man
doesn’t know whether
it is love or
pressure of the groin
he preaches
heteropromiscuity
searching for frolic
as another shield
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I saw her off and
smelled a snake before it raised
its head in the green
shut the iron gate
in rainy darkness moments
hissed end of summer
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The eyes fix on her curves
limb by limb mistily
silen336tly yet savagely
perhaps undressing in mind
measuring her depths and
secret love standing up
with stressed nipples calling
to unhook the blouse, her skirt
and feel the wild magic
a woman is more unsafe
with man than dog in the street
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Vision
to understand
the final whole of un-
discovered specifics before
making
shaping
true reality
hidden in outer world
intricately patterned like
body
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Woman
is the measure
of all things: body, truth
love, spirit, God, society, peace
and man
after
circumcision
ritual of sex with
two to four women tradition
offers
new risks
in Timor or
Egypt where religious
rites circumcise woman denying
love joy
freedom
to discuss sex
is basic to prevent
promiscuous violence against
women
let’s see
ourselves in them
linking our happiness
to theirs cease dehumanizing
God’s gift
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A woman
in poet’s vision
howsoever strange
is ever new:
pierce like diamond
or thread like pearl
to weld in her depth
her nudity
I love for
all her mystery
perfect poetry
beyond the sky
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Last night I woke up
to respond to the door bell
murmuring God’s name
when I unbolted
found none but a passing soul
stopped for a moment
on it’s knees peeking
into its own clasped heads
gazing white silence
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It’s fun
to fill the pockets with sand
and sit on waves for a while
watch the grains dancing
in delight as it empties
drifting body-mind current
in pure acceptance
celebrating triumph
at crest
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Trapped in hope, O God
how unhappy we remain
for a little happiness
from the Cross we seek
joys of living in fear
dusk winds up last rays
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Sin is soluble
in poetry and craft melts
ice cream cone or bone
white in sun sweet risk
refreshing senses tingling
reign raging passion
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Life’s comic spring
would have turned tragic
but for the grace of
love and poesy
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The sudden chill
and the heat inside
how to keep silence?
she can feel my fever
I know nothing of seasons:
when the light goes off
blue shadows dance
feel dumb ache and
stale smell of vests
I hear the wind sour
once again viral
infections nudge August
bring in uncertainties
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Living by forgetting
has kept me from asylum
all these years burdensome
memories buried
in time I kept feeding on
bodies lit with love
forgotten lyrics
I wrote mysticalities
created to conceal
my follies including
acts of lust in the morning
or seeing off guests
I never invited
now under no pressure
to know what happens around
I feel free and enjoy
their music of villainies
and taunts uttered to mourn
my rise they couldn’t check:
I forget curses, my gains
lost in wind of time
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He watches a film
on prohibition opening
a fresh bottle and
smiles at his wife’s threat
to smash the bottle
like the Nellore activists
protesting against
arrack sales and auctions
quietly I switch off
gobble the drink and retire
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The naked tree
seems to sway
in hope of
green waves
spring promises
here am I
prostituting smile
in mirror
despite change
in season’s eye
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I remain
so restless in rest
mind ceases to think
eyes lose sleep
and dreams disappear
I remain
unaware of my worth
losing confidence I see
quiet death of my urges
my elements shaken
in the vacuum of silences
my senses mock at the muck
I’ve piled up all these years
now fear
the walls are crumbling
I wish to escape
the chain that clothes
the freedom of love
and privacy without shame
let me feast in naked earth
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Each one has his eyes
on the trunk snapped in storm now
lying on quiet onion beds
seeks the bark for medicine
or wants me to gift
the log for furniture while
one tells me the price
of sesame and flatters how
lucky I am to
have so many trees
in the compound they bruit how
I hide the wood to season
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The earth is tonsured
and the rains stopped paving way
for the hay fever
once again the grass
will witness history in red
blue white and yellow
across the road dusts
rise and spin new allergies:
spiders in the throat
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Nobody hears
the vacuum
mourning peace:
echo haunts my soul
like leafless trees
raising grief
to sick air
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Each time I am stuck
doing or thinking something
not knowing what to do next
or losing trust in the self
my own notions, my world view
I look for someone to talk things over
or sit still for hours or minutes
turn pages of a book to get
the right idea, the rare insight
fume, fumble, fail, and do autopsy
decode messages on corpse of ideas
and lo! the world changes in a second
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To rain is natural
but their silence
to leaking roofs
and non-supply of light
is unnatural like
my aching limbs
and sneezes when
it’s romantic outside
age fails or love
is scarce these days
to image emptiness
as truth in verse
is wasting words
abusing vision for
concealment of
sun and wind that
couldn’t be part of system
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Philosophy frightens me
confounds obscurity
with profundity:
asking north of the North Pole
or time before big bang
is absurd to me
I don’t reflect time and space
or probe metaphysics
to construct Everest
I love to climb the peak and
search the best route without
high minded debate
that affronts simplicity
symmetry, nudity
a poet’s beauty
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The mind is put off
before the act blood lets down
it’s end before beginning
how can touch be erotic
with ‘cold copulars’
in drunken gibberish?
they all chant their own
equations through grooves of night
trick weeds of ideas
life’s strange relation:
words belong to all
but deeds to a few
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So ordinary
has become my living
sudden with complaints
depressing challenges
and death of desires
shaping dream-images
once when moon or sex
caused no allergy and
breathing was deep
my mind and eyes display
blankness as I wait
sleepless again tonight
in this room spinning
webs of non-consciousness
praying, suffering and
forgetting with new sun
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They all want car, furniture
decoration pieces
latest fashion designs
jewellery and plenty
of money to self-express
misplaced priorities
evoke new tensions in
mid age I converse with
the ceiling off my chump
who bothers about love or prayers
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It’s not that I can’t afford
a few rupees on rickshaw
or buy a car or scooter
but I want to remain glued
to the earth, to dust, with my weight
I walk alone: the grocery
or vegetable slinging
over my shoulder, as it did
forty years ago I think
I can still walk distances
without shame, sweat with dignity
let all that say aha now
know I’m different from them all
let them be measured by
the money they stash between
their legs or dreams they stretch
I’d love to be weighed by my acts
my labour that hurt none
and tomorrow when I’ll be
too old to stand alone or
walk by myself I’ll recall
I had my feet rooted in earth
and known them all who offered
their hands without heart:
they needn’t curse if no one
bothered them after the fall
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I’m true in my element
begotten of earth
hungry to mate with sky:
seek me in song of songs
in kisses that he and she
rehearse on way to bed
the voluptuous squeezes
fulfillment of godly
and bodily promises
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Cloaked in chill
gracious corona
winked at earth
I saw a spark on
my finger she turned
diamond ring
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Drugs don’t diagnose so
let’s kiss our sneezes
into each other and stop
worrying about repression
necessary or surplus
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There is a bay in
each of us depression mounts
to cause hurricane
crumbling caged life and
its traps submerged in rising
water and wind pipes
pressure in silence
unweave years of network
roots of upturned faces
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He laughs at the lone star
gazing his tail upward
from the potato pit:
I thought the dews were tears
fallen before mourning
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Falling leaves like hair
from my head and chest don’t hide
strains of memory
shrinking, melting flesh
swelling voids efflux ageing
earliness missing
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When she stretches her legs for me
to shave the pubic hair we hit
the hay together remembering
the first night I gave her nothing
in my hurry to see her nude
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She props the stooping lemons
with stake but avoids
bending close to me:
I die to draw the blossom
in my twining arms
but she likes the other scent
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Stones carved to dance and
music come alive figures
ever sensuous
pride in what we hide
our cultural memory
they excelled revealing
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I seek in sex
freedom of nature
metaphor of veils
that hide body
spirit as two
and celebrate
pristine purity
of Prakriti
reach ecstasy
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Silence is
mantra in action
beginning
divinity’s descent
and change in
inner being
enkindling
love hope and faith
write by Dempsey